Umm nope.. my life still sucks...

I'm beginning to think that 2004 has it out for me... between the surgery, having to move into mom's, quitting the clinic, being stood up on my birthday, missing 4 or 5 shows and now finding out my m&g requests weren't getting to who they needed to go to (stupid e-mail screw ups!) I can't figure out who deemed it necessary that my life have nothing go good in it, but when I do, I'm kickin them for sure! I guess I don't update much for a couple reasons, one I can't always get online, and 2, my life never changes.. I go to work, I go home and then I go back to work to get groceries and then I go back home. I'd go out if I had someone to go with, but my local friends are married and go with their husbands. And quite frankly, the only men you're gonna see hitting on me are drunk, over 55 wearing turquoise wife beaters (yes that's a true story) I have become what I dreaded the most.. I'm a "purse watcher". The few times I have gotten to go out co-workers ect... I'm the one that doesn't get asked to dance so I get to watch the table and the purses while everyone else lives it up. If I didn't want to go see DB's show so badly I wouldn't go cause as usual I've got to go alone. In a way I almost dread going. A year ago I could go and sit by Kai in the booth and at least have someone I knew nearby, but there's a snowball's chance in hell of that happening now, so I'll go, call you all durring and try to look as un-pathetic as possible, although it's hard to miss us short lil fat girls, we stick out like blue sprinkles on chocolate. Damn I'm rambling again, spose I'd best go and try to sleep...